Start practicing properly, start practicing by repenting, start from taking refuge, and then, practice Bodhicitta. Many people do not understand renunciation. How many years have they been practicing, and they still do not understand renunciation? Everyday they are visualizing suffering. If you are observing suffering every day, are you not going to go crazy? Likewise, if we have so much suffering in our lives and we are still observing suffering, are we not going to go crazy? Renunciation is understanding the truth of this world, understanding the truth, the laws of all phenomena. Renunciation is knowing the true nature of this world.